There is always magic to be found at Soul of Yoga in Encinitas, CA. I walk through the door and immediately feel as though I am wrapped in the loving arms of Everything. That love wave swept through me in this morning’s Metaphysics and Masters Movement class with co-founder Trisha Kelly, and a very humbling vision of letting go was presented to me as I moved through several asanas.
In the vision I was in a crevasse, clinging to the hand of God by a tiny thread. I thought I had to let go and certainly didn’t want to, and was terrified that I would loose my grip and fall. Below me I could see nothing but darkness, emptiness. As I dangled I saw how attached I was to New York City, my friends, ex partners, money, my job, my home, my car, all ‘possessions’, and all identities. As I stared at the thread, my body twisting and turning and struggling, God’s hand opened and I was released, falling into the darkness, my eyes open wide, and mouth set as if to scream – but no sound came out. I watched myself fall and fall and fall until I disappeared. Witnessing the fall I was shocked, but aware of a growing calm. I peered over the edge and stared down into the crevasse. Then I saw myself climbing up out of the darkness, a very small, faint figure at first, and then stronger and bigger. I emerged from the darkness smiling, happy, overjoyed and going on and on about how wonderful and amazing the journey was. I helped pull myself up completely and stood next to myself, fascinated that I could survive the fall and be so clear-headed, so coherent, so bubbly, so grateful – and so in love.
That vision came on the heels of my asking friends to give me space (no phone calls, texts or emails) as I dive into the cave of my heart for nourishment and understanding, and EXPAND into the powerful energies of this new year. I’ve been sitting in what seems like darkness at times for the past few weeks and have felt such incredible fear as I see myself stepping more boldly into my Divine Nature. The process has offered me many opportunities to trust in the Universe and to shed habitual distractions and discomforts of the past. Today’s gift during yoga class was another reminder to be with What Is, and to surrender to the hand of All That Is, which is infinitely kind, generous, compassionate, peaceful and full of everything we could ever dream of.
What are you clinging to? Can you let go and trust that you are all ways held and watched over? Can you surrender your fear, resentment, anger, or disappointment and move through the layers of emotion as you allow something more peaceful to enter?
Special thanks to Sydney for asking me to stand tall and let go.
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Thanks Joe. xo